1st Diary : 16th February

Today was not that special.
What I do just helping my sister pick up her daughter and then I just watching some Korean reality show, I eat and then I frustrated why I can not consistent in diet. Like that. Everyday.

But, there's one thing that makes this day different with other day.
I got quarrel with my boyfriend.
In my opinion is :
You always talking about your work, your job. Everyday.
When we meet.
While we chatting in Whatsapp
While we chatting and face each other
While we were eat
While we were on a motorcycle
Almost everywhere and everyday.
Sometimes it makes me uncomfortable because I need something like "our time".
Talking about us not just you.

Why I can't just say honestly what I feel to you??
Because I'm afraid
I'm afraid you will say that "OK, I will never ever talking about that again"
It's not what I meant.
You can talk about your job but please understand me..
I don't want to hear that everyday even if we don't see each other you still talk about your job.
Understand me.

But our quarrel didn't stay long.
He said sorry but he feel uneasy because I never told him honestly what I'm feeling
Finally, he just said that he want to sleep and calm himself down
Because he mad right now.

So, what about me?
Ah, it's okay lah.
I try to understand
Don't you understand me?
I need to talk to you longer.
But, maybe you can't understand me.